Mind Over Matter

On May 13, 2009, I gave birth to my second daughter, Farrah, via an unmedicated VBAC. It is probably the experience I am most proud of to date. I had a c-section with Dessa and had a lot of worry about the possibility of being able to experience a natural, vaginal delivery. It was an amazing and exhilarating experience, a bit funny too! You can read Farrah’s birth story here.

You would think my successful VBAC would mark my overcoming my fear of another c-section but what I conquered is much greater than that. See I’m the kind of person who has lots of dreams, ideas that I want to make a reality. However, somehow I find a way to make choices and go about life not ever really making them happen. I don’t get down about it because my life is great but I always think about them; they consume me – the book I’ve been meaning to write, the business I’m always meaning to start, the classes I want to take – you get the picture. But I don’t ever know how I could possibly get from point A to point B. My VBAC proved to me I can really do anything I put my mind to.

The entire experience was so normal. Yes, normal. I was present and in control and focused. I got me through it. My husband supported me and believed in me and was excited for us. I planned, I educated myself, I surrounded myself with support. It wasn’t the dramatic fast paced movie scene delivery. It was in real time. I know the same principal applies to those dreams I’ve been plotting for years. They’e not anything out of the ordinary; they’re normal to do list items that just require a little more time and effort. I can push babies out of my vagina – that’s a pretty serious super power right there so surely I can do anything!

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